i've never quite felt so defeated.

closing all the doors that needed to be closed. its left me quite dis-illusioned with everything. i said i'm ready to start anew, but now i wonder if i even want to start anything anymore. disturbing thought. hah.

i refuse to believe anything said about you, unless you tell me yourself. in my eyes, you can do no wrong it seems. and yet, i have the hardest time forgiving you sometimes.

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